Complicated yet Meaningful Life

Once upon a time, I said I want to improve my "Chinese" standard so I started to post in Chinese. But yet my "Chinese" still didn't get an A in my SPM examinations. It sounds bad but never mind since I've tried my best! Now again I wanted to improve my "English" standard, so I will start to post in English from now until I change my mind. xD I know the "xD" symbol is quite annoying but no choice I have to use it. I can't stop myself from using / writing it wherever i found it needs to be there. But okay, I will try to cut down on writing this meaningful but useless symbol. xD Why I want to improve my "English" ? It is a long long story. Firstly, I found out that my English level is too low, cant even compare to a secondary school student. Too bad right? xD never mind. I will try to overcome this issue as soon as possible! Next, I always like to try out new thing xD This is because I do not ever wrote a formal English before on the Internet, the greatest invention by human. xDD So, I would like to try it out now. I hope I can continue and not change my mind until my English level is acceptable by myself as well as this community. xD Hope the one who looking at my post would not laugh at my grammar mistakes because this is really the first and the really first time I write a post using Formal English. By the way, I just changed the url of my blog xDDD So, there will be not much people know about my blog. Once I feel my "English" is okay then I will share with others xD But that is sure a long time to go. Wow, I wrote so much nonsense and still didn't go into the main point that I wanted to talk about today! Serious now. xD Actually I'm going to say that this few days was stressful and sad for me. I just get involved with some "problems" and it makes me really hurt. I even cried hardly for that. I've suffered for 3 or 4 days with sad and pale face. But Thanks God, everything is alright now. God had given me a nice friend that cheer me up when I was really sad. He listened to all of my "nonsense" even though all of those was not related to him. That's why people says the God is always fair. When it takes away something from you, it will give you another thing which maybe better than the one it took away. I lost a "x", and I gained a "y". Although the "x" and "y" are totally two different things, but they had changed my life. One lead me to negative path, and another lead me to positive path. xD So, I'm balanced now and back to normal life. Thanks KL, I really appreciate what you've done. xDDD I always believe that "time can cures everything". Maybe I have to take 1 month or few weeks to recover, but you've recovered me in just few days! I hope I can be fully recover after 1 month. xDD Okay, if you are looking at this post and you can understand what I 've wrote, you're are a PRO (I swear this is the only informal word in my post.) xDD If you cannot understand, then just let it be. Well, it's already 4.05am but I'm not sleepy. Perhaps I'm too excited because I've wrote an "essay" here ! Maybe I will keep on writing until I feel sleepy? It's okay, I will write out the time when I end my post. xDD Regarding my studies, I've tried my very best on the coursework. I hope the result would not disappoint me, or my family. Everything is over right now, just left the final examination. Some coursework take 40% of the total marks whereas some take 60% of total mark. But PCD takes 50% for coursework and final exam. In the evening just now, I've checked all the subjects in our course, all the Programming subjects take 50% for coursework and final. Maybe this is the way they evaluate the result of students? Not sure xD I just hope that I can maintain my merit scholarship, that is, CGPA above 2.75 xD But I think first semester should can get higher than that because it is a bit too simple. (Too Proud?) No, not really. As I said I 've checked all the subjects in our course. All the other subjects in the coming semester was quite tough and complicated. When I looked at the course outline, I get a shock, because I totally don't know what is it all about. Am I choose the wrong course? That doesn't matter anymore. I should love what I've chosen even though I know it's tough for me. So, what can I do for now? There is only one and the only answer, that is, study hard. Some senior says, TARC is easy to get in, but not easy to graduate. Perhaps it is true, because so far I've seen most of the lecturers are quite strict and responsible, at least my lecturers are like that. It's not like what people says "going College is like going for honeymoon". I cant get any honeymoon's feel here. What I do everyday was study, study, and study. Study, in my opinion, include doing homework, research, and test. So, my life is all about homeworks, tests, assignments and examinations. At least, this four years will be like that unless I withdraw from the course but this is nearly impossible. Once I've decided to do something, I will not give up easily, as well as my studies. So, let's wait and see how is my performance ! xD It's 4.26a.m. now. I think I should stop writing, because this "essay" is quite long already. Thanks for anyone who viewed my first post of formal English. It is greatly appreciated. And please forgive me if I 've done some, or perhaps all grammar mistakes in this post. Again, thanks KL. You helped me get up ! xD