痴情～

我又来了。。@___@
没办法。。时间过得很慢 haiz。。
明天 “ 才 ” 开学也。。应该早几天的！
那我才不会闷到要来写blog。。><

原本刚刚8pm打算睡到12am的。。
怎知。。睡睡下突然起身。。
看看时间。。以为是23.41。。
很兴奋咯，飞去开电脑上网。。
电脑boot完startup一看。。OMG。。
竟然是21.41。。失望-ing。。T__T
为什么不是十二点？？Grrrr。。
现在才10点。。还要等多2小时才看到你。。
看什么哦。。你说我是不是sot了？LOL
Nono。。这个叫痴情。。xD

想当天23号晚上。。姐姐约你晚餐。。
我一看到你就一直笑。。什么事哦？LOL
不知道。。也控制不了。。xD
或许是太久没见。。其实也不是很久。。
为什么我feel到好像过了两三个世纪？＝＝
驾车驾到一直笑的我差点就没看车了。。xD
好久好久都没有那种feel了。。很开心。。
原来太想念一个人会那样的。。O.O

写了那么长竟然还10.07pm。。What the。。
时间你就不能过快一点嘛？
为什么每次和你一起的时间过得特别快？
然后没有你的时候过得特别慢？LOL。。
不知道。。去问上帝。。LOL

okay啦。。说回今天。。我很乖叻。。
虽然迟起身。。不过也没有饿到肚子。。
我还特地跑下楼去canteen买饭给它吃！
喂饱饱了。。它也没有痛呱。。xD
这个叫做。。我对你好，你也对我好
不过晚上就没有那么好了。。T__T
我要吃yong tau fu。。姐姐死都要MCD。。＝＝
没办法。。我们去jusco咯。。吃MCD。。TT
她叫spicy炸鸡。。我不知道吃什么。。
因为不健康嘛。。不过又不要饿到它。。
所以偷吃她的鸡肉咯。。LOL。。
然后又没有水喝。。T__T。。她又叫Coke。。
没办法。。喝咯。。不然辣死我咯。。TT
之后不饱。。去买MCD雪糕吃。。OMG。。

肚子开始lao gai了。。＝＝
我也lao gai。。吵着回宿舍。。
她原本想买东西。。不给她买！LOL
因为今天jusco爆满。。很多人排队。。
我宁愿快点回去休息。。O.O
所以我赢了。。LOL。。回去咯。。

一天又过了。。xD。。
希望今天不要发作。。我怕怕～
我明天还要见你的。。><
上天很好的。。会医好我的。。xD
乐观是好事。。LOL。。
whatever。。为什么还是10.17 ？Arghhh...
算了。。我停！

心血来潮！

哇。。今天不知做什么。。突然想来回忆回忆一下 xDD。。
咋看之下，原来去年那五个月我真的mad的？
竟然可以每天保持写blog（虽然现在还是每天写日记啦。。）？
而且还写到比essay还长多多声 LOL。。sot的咩。。
刚刚去看回之前的post。。OMG。。看到眼花缭乱。。＝＝
原来我真的sot的。。xDD。。没有几个人可以比我更sot了吧？xDD
不过很sien的咯。。每天写爱来爱去的。。又一直emo emo。。
应该改一下下。。O.O 以后这里就拿来写废话吧。。
那些emo status全部塞进日记里面。。呵呵。。
而且我发现人家的blog都没有那么长篇大论的。。
我应该也要改一下下。。xD 短短就好。。LOL。。

okay啦。。说说最近的生活。。O.O
什么事都有发生。。不外乎是关于男人的？NoNoNo。。
女人也有的。。xD。。家人也有。。！
话说现在我已经在宿舍了，很兴奋，也很自由～
不像在家里那样。。pampered kid。。什么都是妈妈～
不是我想那样的！是她太关心我了！怕我发生什么事 ><
所以一两个小时就给我吃这个，吃那个。。@__@
这样一来想瘦都难了？LOL。。而且。。
她对我太太太太好了。。好到我觉得自己真的很像废人LOL
每天饭来张口，衣来伸手（当然没有帮忙穿衣LOL）。。
全部她做完了？我没得做 xD。。然后说我很像皇后？LOL
所以呢。。还是宿舍好。。至少全部东西自己来。。
自己找东西吃。。自己洗衣。。自己照顾自己。。O.O
不过这样也是会中招。。胃痛来了？＝＝

其实每次sem break回家啊。。都会引发胃痛。。
这个是我最最最不喜欢回家的其中一个原因！
因为她喂我喂到太太太饱了。。人家都说胃痛不能吃太多。。
她以为不吃会更严重。。所以拼命给我吃。。TT
好了。。痛死我了。。都不敢和她说。。
因为我要快快回来宿舍。。xD。。就和哥哥达成协议
23号就飞回来宿舍了。。O.O 胃痛还是会有。。
至少好过在家。。是不是？好了发作了。。
她又来了。。她非常非常担心。。我知道的啊。。
逼我回家。。说要给我吃这个那个。。omg。。
我怕怕。。我不要再乱乱吃了。。极力反抗！
她很失望。。and so do I ～
所以就这样我又呆在宿舍了。。

现在每天逼自己改变饮食习惯！
我已经在360度转变了。。！
早上起身就逼自己一定要吃。。
至少泡个麦片还是milo+奶粉。。
午餐也是一样也。。
平时死都不去canteen的我，刚才就去了！！
肚子你给我听好。。我定时给你喂饱饱
你最好也给我乖乖听话不要乱乱痛！
不然我就不要你了！LOL（怎样不要？）

终于发泄完了？xD Nonono。。
还是忍不住。。一天不想你都不可以！
我的dear啊。。辛苦了咯。。
连续做5天工。。然后还要开学上课 @__@
一定非常累的了。。><
前天竟然还去打扰你做工。。
其实我只是想看看你而已啊。。
没有奢望什么。。
只是“她”以为我很想和你吃东西。。
所以一直kacau你。。haiz。。
我是feel到你不开心了。。只是不知道原因
原来我的第六感不是假的。。xDDD
whatever啦。。no next time ～
下次就算是有机会，都不会kacau你了！
在旁边偷偷看其实更加high。。LOL

最后。。我还是要说。。
我超级想你的！
再肉麻都还是要说。。
I love You No Matter How ♥
Nothing Gonna Change My Love for You..
我最爱的建隆！xDDD

错了错了。。

I've made a serious mistake T___T Words really can hurt people.. So sorry my dear ">__<" I really didn't mean that way T__T.. I felt that u were hurt just now ">___<" by my stupid question.. u said "why u 2 also like this" .. i know what it means.. ">__<" sorry that i made u feel that way again T__T I'm really bad.. all of this started by me .. i complain always.. T___T.. I make myself suffer.. and so do u... besides sorry I don't know what to say... ">__<" why am I such a troublesome... Cry really doesn't help to improve situation.. just getting more and more suffer... T___T but I can't control the tears... what should I do? I feel shame for myself.. T__T Now I even not dare to open fb... I don't know how to face u... I don't know what can I talk to comfort u... T__T Sincerely, I really didn't want you to bb with me T___T I'm just afraid u will do that to me... T___T ... no more next time... i won't say it anymore... I'm worrying u... but u already told me before u won't tell out ur problem... becoz it will make me emo? u said u will settle urself T__T whatever... since what I talk also cannot comfort u... T___T ... why every sem break also like this T__T it's all me again... T___T I miss u too much.. think too much... and care too much... T___T before i always say want u to be happy... but i cant do it... so sorry.. i always make u emo... even just small thing... T___T now i know what is 茶饭不思.. coz i feel that way now... T______T no more appetite.. this 2 day my mind is just all about u... don't know why... i can't focus on any other thing... even my favourite programming T_____T... i hate myself.. i even think of disappear in this world... ">___<" but i won't do it... i know there will be many bad consequences... T___T but what can i do.. nothing i can do... i said won't let u got 阴影 anymore... I fail again... T___T u already feel that way right now... T___T but i really didn't mean that way T_________T 从头到尾 also didn't think of bb with u... T___T i'm just too 自卑... i always no confident... i scare u will bb to me... T______T now I even make u emo always... i scare u will feel very suffer... and this add on to my thought... i afraid that will happen... T______T But i would not want it to be happen.... T____T just now u said "u want is it" ... this sentences scared me... T___T I don't want i don wan i don wan... ">____<"... carol u fail... T_______T

对不起对不起对不起。。我错了。。T____T 

Sem Break !!

OMG.. it's semester break now !! What does this mean ? I have to struggle for 1 month plus... because I'm not able to see you ~ LOL.. Let's hope this month will be over very soon xDD Last few days was quite unusual and emotional.. moreover it's on exam period @__@ and the stupid period problem keep on occur ... it makes me super stress and uncomfortable ~ so I lost control O.O and burst out almost everything ~_~ that night was a sleepless night .. I've complaint so much to you suddenly... sorry my dear O.O i'm just a normal individual.. and not as optimistic as what I always act.. ">__<" What I've said are truth but unintentional ... sometimes truth should not be tell out as it might hurt others, especially those that loved you O.O Anyways.. sad moment had passed xD We already had a talk and settled the conflict ? Is that really considered a conflict ? LOL.. perhaps it's just too much of expectation.. I should not expect too much.. Well.. I've figured out the fact.. that is.. don't ever care too much.. be happy always.. ^^ everything is gonna be alright at the end ~ Although life is always not go as smooth as what we wish.. just face it with open-mind and don't ever be too stubborn and "over think" xD Over the 8 months (5 days to go xD) I have changed a lot and have different point of view, compared to before.. o.o I learned to tolerate and appreciate which I didn't even do throughout the 18 years of my life.. because I was youngest in family and over-cared ~ I do not have much friend though.. So I don't really care and appreciate others.. O.O I just treat people like how they treat me xD Until I date with you, I started to know to maintain a relationship is not easy O.O nonono.. I always know that.. So I interact with you carefully.. to avoid argue and conflicts xD.. But I used to be bad.. do not care people feeling so much if I'm not interested on them.. Instead, I care all about you.. LOL.. For you to be happy, I'm willing to hold on my temper and change anger into happy by thinking in another angle xD Yea I did that always.. So I do not angry on you so far.. mostly I will kept quiet but it's not angrying.. just a little bit unhappy? xD But you told me.. I do not have to tolerate with you too much.. I can be angry also.. O.O But I found out when you're in front of me, I will not be able to angry because all the things become positive once I saw you LOL.. donno how to explain Grrr... whatever.. You are unique to me.. xD I don't think I can find another guy which can make me feel this way anymore.. Even there is.. but it's not you anymore.. So I Don't want it to be happen !! I just want you you you .. Ang Kian Leong ♥ That's all I want to write for today.. xD.. Lastly, I super love you ! As much as I can ever think.. ♥