It's me again 👀

Yoyoyo, I am back again after 1 year 1 month plus 😆
soooooo... how is everything so far?
2020 is a terrible year for most of the human..
but it is definitely a huge change for everything.. hmm..😌
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eg. work from home is no longer a dream.. 
but a disaster also? LOL 😵
initially we thought work from home must be fun..
who know it further demonstrate the workaholic ability.. 😰
especially for the perfectionist like me.. ">__<"

imagine working from morning until midnight 12am (in the same room)
and yes I still haven't change job 😌
although it has been a ultra stressful year for me.. 😅 (or maybe not ultra? just normal?😳)
okay work is over.. as long as still not dead yet ~ 😌
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how about life? 😳
have i found my purpose in life? 😵
nooo... i am still as confused as before.. 😵
not knowing what I want or what is my purpose 😰
do human really need purpose in life? 😕
what's for to be alive if there is no purpose? 😵
if watch youtube enough, then can know the answer LOL
"find your confidence, then you will find your purpose!" 😌 (from donno which youtuber)
but where to find my confidence? coding? 😳
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oh ya.. i changed my car!
小黄 is gone 😫 and replaced by 小白.. ✌
my thought is to change car every 5 years..(y so waste?) 😵
this year is the 5th year & so i changed 😳
bcoz people say after 5 yrs car will start to have problem..
& i am afraid to maintain car outside of original factory >__<
so what is the next potential car after 5 years? back to Axia? 😅
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and yes, we bought another house 😳
is it a decision made wisely? (not sure..😰)
is it a impulse decision? (yes for me..😅)
is there a risk? (😳 maybe.. but hope not)
is the location strategic? (quite.. 😗)
is the pricing reasonable? (😳 reasonable before covid, maybe not after covid?)
can we afford total of X houses in coming future? (😵 hopefully)

but wait... what if we are not together anymore? 😳
what if he end up choosing another girl? (imaginative one? LOL😳)
choi choi choi.. don always so pessimistic okay 😌 (although i am..)
okay let's be serious.. even if the worst case happen.. 
we will just go through the flow as it come then.. 😢
wait for the house to finish construction at 2025 and sell it?
there will always be a solution i believe 😗
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how about our relationship? 👫
has it grow stronger? (i hope yes 😌)
has it became stable? (i think yes..? 😳)
has it already ready to move on to next stage? (i think not..😅)
but has it already provide me the affirmation that he is the one? (i think so..😗)
bla bla bla this is just my one sided story anyways 😌
and even after 9th years, i still cannot know what is inside his mind 😗
i think i will never understand him 😆
nvm, i will try again 😗💪 (if only there is a life time for me to try 😆)
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how about myself? let's have some reflection..
- did i already become matured? 😳 (i think yes.. in some cases..😌)
- did i already capable of handling stress? (maybe...? 😆 since i haven't change job LOL)
- did i finally grow up? 😆 (i hope so... 😎 not so dependent anymore can consider?)
- did i learn to save money? (nooo.. i will never achieve this.. 😟😟)
- did i gain weight? (yesss... become fatty soon 😭)
- did i do something i will never do previously? (yessss... i started to have hamster as pet!😎)
- did i excel in my skill? (no.. not much improvement this year..😟)
- what did i learnt this year? 😵 (i am getting old 😆😅)
- what i want to do next year? (get a kid? LOL? 😰 i hope i am kidding 😆, it is never easy to become parent anyways 😗.. okay get a new hobby maybe 😌)
yay end of update ~ stay tune next year! 😆😆

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