cny

hmm...
its CNY soon...
should b happy de..
cn get ang pau ma..
lols..

haiz...
don think so much...
lets go on as usual...
plz let mi graduate xDD
as soon as possible ~

i will study hard hard de..
i will able to protect u...
i will nt let him hurt u..
with his nasty words ARGH..

just now nearly argue with him...
even it's just small thing...
i really cnt bear his mouth...
how can be such bad...lols
i ve tahan for 20 yrs already Grr
i wonder when i can talk...
louder than him ?

when i got money?
when i got a house?
lols... long time to go..
hope that i can gv u ...
a better lifestyle...
a better house...
and best daughter...
until the end of ur life...

i was super scare ...
since doctor said u have only..
10 years max of ur life...
when u got the sick tat year...
i was really counting each yr...
now its already 12 yrs ...
and u already recovered...

but i'm still afraid...
i donno ...
when u are going to leave mi...
i haven even 报答 u...
so.. whenever u go out...
im super worry...
tat y when i bck home...
i must stick with u...
go wherever u want...

i know tat everyone will pass away..
but i don wan it to be happen...
although its impossible...
but pls...at least...
let me 尽尽孝道 ...

i asked u wat can i gift u...
when i was child...
bcoz i got no money and power..
u say... result good can le..
so tat u can b proud of mi...
infront others who look down u..

so.. i try super hard...
to achieve the only thing i can gift u...
as a student...a child...a daughter...
bcoz i know besides this..
im nothing... i cnt gift u anything...
other than study hard... TT

whenever i get good result...
i only want to let u know...
n when i get bad result..
i don want to let u know...lols...
coz i will feel myself so useless..
the only thing u wish from me..
and i cnt achieve it....lols...

so...plz let me graduate faster...
i want to work..
to repay back 20++ yrs..
of your best care...

whenever u tell mi how he treat u...
i am so angry and suffer...
bcoz i cnt do anything...
i only know cry lols....
hw come ppl dad cn be so good..
lols...

calm down calm down...
tmr is a good day..
thanks god u are still alive...
thanks god i m still growing up...
i will be a good daughter...
not like wat he said...
throw u to old folk home...
it is impossible...

bcoz he is the one Grrr...
but surely i wont do tat lols..
im not as cruel as he is...arghhh
although my hate for him
is ever increasing Grrr....

really nid calm down...
bb xD