blaaa...

o.o back to college life le..

feel much & much better..xD

sure la.. everyday can c someone xD

instead of listen to xxxx at home O.O

i notice something this few days..

i become super anti him lols..

that day my mum came to find me..

initially i agree to go out dinner

then i heard they wan go PJ..

i straight say no need .. lols..

today my mum say he will come kl..

then maybe bring us to lunch..

i also rejected strongly ... lols

what happened to me? @_@

is that really what i wan? ~_~

i've no idea ~ donno y ~ blek..

just feel don wan to meet him @@

am i so bad ? @__@

watever ~

xxx

o.o donno what title to put ne...
it's good also.. can let ppl guess xD
attract ppl to read my post..
wakakaka... xD
although we gt ntg to talk ~

so fast CNY 4th day le O.O
ytd just back from perak ~
it's super super tired lols
we stay overnight at there ~
sleep on living room floor..

new year wor...
sure get many ang pau..
o.o really get many..
before get le can dream..
wan to buy what gift for myself xD

now ah.. just enough for my
1 month plus de 生活费.. lols
kid and adult really different .. ">_<"
so.. new yr happy or not ne?
no happy no unhappy no feeling ~

pak tor happy or not le?
o.o secret lai de.. xD
will be reveal in diary hehe..

yuan lai today last day in bentong ~
this few days is super cold ~
no matter is weather or xxxx
maybe it is really cold .. hmm...
i think so ... lols.. sot jor xD

5.20pm le.. just finish my "brunch"
bentong nasi lemak.. quite nice..
many ppl queue to buy just now O.O
but it is also super pedas # #
haiz..

what can i do ne?
i don like stay home ~
and also going back... lols
i wan continue dream..
">_<" whatever la..

cny

hmm...
its CNY soon...
should b happy de..
cn get ang pau ma..
lols..

haiz...
don think so much...
lets go on as usual...
plz let mi graduate xDD
as soon as possible ~

i will study hard hard de..
i will able to protect u...
i will nt let him hurt u..
with his nasty words ARGH..

just now nearly argue with him...
even it's just small thing...
i really cnt bear his mouth...
how can be such bad...lols
i ve tahan for 20 yrs already Grr
i wonder when i can talk...
louder than him ?

when i got money?
when i got a house?
lols... long time to go..
hope that i can gv u ...
a better lifestyle...
a better house...
and best daughter...
until the end of ur life...

i was super scare ...
since doctor said u have only..
10 years max of ur life...
when u got the sick tat year...
i was really counting each yr...
now its already 12 yrs ...
and u already recovered...

but i'm still afraid...
i donno ...
when u are going to leave mi...
i haven even 报答 u...
so.. whenever u go out...
im super worry...
tat y when i bck home...
i must stick with u...
go wherever u want...

i know tat everyone will pass away..
but i don wan it to be happen...
although its impossible...
but pls...at least...
let me 尽尽孝道 ...

i asked u wat can i gift u...
when i was child...
bcoz i got no money and power..
u say... result good can le..
so tat u can b proud of mi...
infront others who look down u..

so.. i try super hard...
to achieve the only thing i can gift u...
as a student...a child...a daughter...
bcoz i know besides this..
im nothing... i cnt gift u anything...
other than study hard... TT

whenever i get good result...
i only want to let u know...
n when i get bad result..
i don want to let u know...lols...
coz i will feel myself so useless..
the only thing u wish from me..
and i cnt achieve it....lols...

so...plz let me graduate faster...
i want to work..
to repay back 20++ yrs..
of your best care...

whenever u tell mi how he treat u...
i am so angry and suffer...
bcoz i cnt do anything...
i only know cry lols....
hw come ppl dad cn be so good..
lols...

calm down calm down...
tmr is a good day..
thanks god u are still alive...
thanks god i m still growing up...
i will be a good daughter...
not like wat he said...
throw u to old folk home...
it is impossible...

bcoz he is the one Grrr...
but surely i wont do tat lols..
im not as cruel as he is...arghhh
although my hate for him
is ever increasing Grrr....

really nid calm down...
bb xD

TT

TT... im emo again...
although nothing happened...
why? bcoz the bomb was triggered...
u did not knew it...
bcoz u did nothing wrong..
i was the 1 who wrong TT..
i still cant let go it... TT
i tot everything went fine already..
but it isnt... TT
u treat me super good already...
but when i saw him...
donno whether is it really the ppl...
maybe i c wrongly...
but i felt suffer again... TT
i felt im bad...
i was unfaithful TT...
wat can i do # #
can i restart my life TT
u got to work tmr...until sunday..
i will be fine already ba... TT
anyways...
still thanks so much dear...
for treating me so good still...
although there's a needle forever...
it will always remind me...
to treat u better...
n not redo the mistake.. TT

whatever...
love continues..
i will keep on improve..
TT