Cry ? O.O

What's Crying? xD From Wikipedia..."Crying is shedding tears as a response to an emotional state in humans." Causes of crying can be either pain or joy.. it can be caused by stress too... So..William H. Frey II proposed that people feel "better" after crying, due to the elimination of hormones associated with stress. Hmm.. I'm getting much better now xD.. yes I cried ! yeah...xD.. Honestly, I cried for 2 times ">__<" which is yesterday midnight.. and just now 6pm.. lols.. why cry? related to u? definitely related of u.. but it's not that u made me cry.. Just myself... perhaps I think too much.. feel too much... and wish too much.. That's why people always say.. women are so hard to discover ~ lols.. I'm a girl.. I also not sure what I'm thinking....and why I always like to cry.. sometimes for a small issue.. sometimes totally cry for nothing... ">___<" Maybe this is my way to release stress.. o.O lols.. let's see what's the actual cause.. back to ytd midnight.. ">__<" I'm always waiting for u to date me.. lols.. u did.. but it's late a bit ">__<".. I never think carefully when the guy ask me to teach him.. so I accepted .. after that.. u said u planned to study again next day.. I felt so regret of accepting to teach the guy.. lols.. I want to reject him.. but u ask me go ahead to teach him since I promised.. ">__<" I'm struggled @__@ Coz my mind was full of you.. I just want to meet u.. if possible.. everyday.. LOL...I didn't know that u would want to study for the next day.. ">__<" ... but nothing I can do.. since you said nvm.. I'm so down after that.. coz it's friday.. and we cannot meet until exam.. ">__<" Why the hell so like to meet? I hate myself.. lols... why am I so 痴缠? 1 day no meet will die ? ">___<" Don't know.. girls are troublesome.. it's the fact... @__@ ..and I believe I'm... So.. I went offline.. and lay on bed.. put blanket over my head... that's how I sleep usually.. coz my sister didn't off the light.. If I have to sleep.. the blanket has to cover my eyes... O.O so.. I started to cry.. ">__<" silently..since my sister was just beside.. I can't enjoy crying loudly.. LOL.. anyways.. Why Cry? perhaps.. feeling sad by mixture of things.. or .. 纯粹要发泄.. or Emo.. Whatever ~ not important anymore...LOL... I think I cried for 1 hour.. until tired.. then fall asleep... ">__<" ... the next day.. which is today.. I woke up with swollen eyes.. on the way to bathroom... I can't see clearly somemore ">__<" but I'm fine.. just a bit upset.. xD so after finish bath.. I went to college... canteen 1... to meet the guy.. for photostating the PIS tutorial answer O.O then he is gone ~ I'm alone in canteen 1 ... waiting for another guy to come.. the 1 who ask me teach him PCD.. ">__<" We planned to meet in library... but I said library was boom... so I ask him to come canteen 1 since I'm there already LOL... he came... and he is playing laptop all the way... and chatting with me... lols... I don't think I got teach him something.. ">___<" ... I was missing u... I was thinking.. you should be in home .. So I went online.. by using my hp .. O.O on fb.. I saw you post something on my wall... O.O so I comment... and you said u are in library.. LOL.. Suddenly.. I felt damn happy ">__<" even it's just a small thing.. lols.. then I said I want to find u.. ">___<" and ask which floor u in.. lols.. You ask me to find myself.. @__@ no choice.. I fly to library .. in 10 minutes time... on the way to library.. I'm excited.. lols... I found u.. just in second floor.. with red shirt.. O.O you're alone there.. and you said u came since 11++... lols.. I'm same too... ">___<" I knew u purposely went to library.. you're actually quite good.. I don't know appreciate? lols.. I appreciated u so much ">___<" I afraid to lost u.. I afraid 1 day u will be leaving me.. coz of my stupid personality .. whatever ~ Is it every girl is the same? Missing their love one every day? and wish to be loved ? lols... why am I so emotional ? I'm not this kind of person.. lols.. ">___<" anyways ~ back to library... I'm so glad that I can meet u today.. which I think there is no chance for me to meet u.. xD.. u was doing PCD past year .. O.O I do nothing there.. just look at u.. lols... Always say want to meet u.. but when I meet with u.. It's different situation.. I talk less.. lols.. what happened? = = don't know... T___T this is girl... unpredictable = = ... and annoying.. I didn't eat again... for morning.. ">___<" why am I so bad? didn't take care of own health.. sigh.. failure.. ">__<" u say we will go to eat.. lols.. I should eat myself.. and not make u worry for me.. = = I felt I'm a trouble for u..bring me to eat..while you already ate... wasted your petrol... fetch in and out.. ">___<" see Carol...you are such a big troublesome ... I think so ... u fetch me to Sri Rampai there eat.. then back to hostel... saw my sis.. together with Eric there.. both of us are in boy's car.. lols... she's online-ing there... we online also..using ur netbook xD.. my sis said they are going to tbr for dinner.. ask me whether want to follow... ">___<" I rejected... you asked me whether I'm unhappy.. lols.. absolutely yes... but impossible I tell u .. I'm sad because we cannot meet after that.. or.. I'm sad coz cannot eat with u.. lols.. what a stupid reason for unhappy... ">___<" so I said I'm fine... you are always so clever.. you know I'm not in good mood.. coz I didn't talk.. lols .. so.. you become unhappy.. caused by me.. = = haiz.. stupid Carol.. own emo affected other.. T___T .. we wait in car until 6.30++.. then only Eric drove away his fren car.. so.. I back into hostel..and u gone.. T____T ... I went into my room and locked the door... then sit on bed... sad sad sad... tear dropped.. yea...cry again... I'm emo.. for stupid reason... ">___<" my room is empty and I'm alone... good  for me... finally.. I can cry with voice... this is the first time I cried so hardly... and so seriously... after my secondary school life.. lols.. cry sometimes is good for release stress too.. hope that I'm fine enough to face the exam xDD... I don't want to cry anymore..until finish the exam... xD after cry.. I fall asleep again.. tired.. O.O it's already 11.30pm++ when I woke up.. didn't receive any message... maybe u are not in good mood also.. ">___<"  today is 30/12.. this will be my second last post for blog... after this.. no more emo post.. xD.. and no more post... lols.. this post.. is all about my thoughts.. my stupid thoughts.. my stupid mind... with stupid reason to cry... ">___<" I just can't stop thinking about u.. lols.. I wonder how I going to continue my life if we separate xD.. maybe can.. but it will be suffering ~_~ yes... a long long post... can u finish read? xD... don't be upset .. u didn't make me cry.. I'm too sensitive.. xD.. I'm fine now.. no more emo.. xD.. will try to improve myself.. 1/1/2012 .. no more hs.. no more trouble.. xD try to be independant.. xD.. and try to be mature.. no crying so much...lols... anyways... still love u so much... ♥ good night xD