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2017年2月26日星期日

O.O I'm Back !!

低潮期过完了~ lalala ~
hmmm.. so what happened? o.O
nothing big actually xD
new year new job lalala ~
YEAP, NEW JOB !

hmm.. actually my plan is not that soon ~
my initial plan is to change after Taiwan trip O.O
opps what is that? hmm.. yo our first foreign Trip !! 
LOL.. seems like missing a lot of thing in this blog xD
hahaha.. didn't think of record all these precious moment ~

ok let's back to the main topic !
since i was being stressed until mad, 
the best solution was to change ! lalala ~
but I didn't actually open up my resume..
just so ngam that a few company approach me..
so I just give them a try :p

and I have took 6 days leaves within CNY period,
why waste it and slack in home? LOL 
so just take that opportunity to meetup xD
had tried around 4 and found out i super like 1 of them !
then so happy they offer me too.. xD
so I went to talk w boss O.O

that was my first time in life !!
i feel so gan jiong lols..  to tender ">__<"
after going into the boss room for 11 mins (someone count for me LOL?)
and there it goes !! I said I would like to stay until end of March
to help with the transition period and hand over ~
bcoz the skills is still new and not easy to hire ppl o.o

so I sent the email and forward to HR and tada ~
that's all for my life first permanent job ~
hmmm...questions come..
don't u think here is the most suitable place?
in terms of location (near to bf <3)
the office environment (big table + monitor + space)
friendly human xDDDD
job scope match with my skillset (but not timeline!)
and distance to my current house O.O

so why still leaving? ">__<"
hmmm... that's PnC lalalalala ~
LOL.. then why bullshit so much ?
lalala I like it xD 

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okay next topic !
our first Foreign Trip !!!
so how it all started? O.O
hmm.. it all comes with 冲动 and Passion
one day, i saw "oppa sharing 【歐爸 旅游 分享站】"
post the promotion of AirAsia flight ticket..
then I faster grab the opportunity and discuss w him <3
tada ~ we bought our flight ticket LOL

then we plan to wait until 2017 only plan the schedule ~
then just so ngam in festival we saw a booth ~
the ppl selling travel package to taiwan ~
actually their company sell Wedding Photo package ~
then now they offer Travel Package as well ~
after listen to explanation, we signed !!
feels like so 冲动 @@ lols

so, they will plan for our schedule, meal, hotel bla bla bla ~
we only have to choose the place we like / food we like?
hmm.. but still so worry about the reality ...
afraid everything will be different when we arrive taiwan LOL
hmm... but with faith in heart everything will be smooth ! LOL

then we also proceed to MidValley and exchange MYR for NTD
too bad the rate is dropped just after we change the money !!!
ARGHHHHH.. however, it rises again ~_~
yo.. that's all for our first trip xD...
hope it is a smooth one !

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hmm.. seems like i forget to mention about my house 
O.O I have a house ? O.O O.O O.O
this blog is really out dated LOLLL
yeap, I have my first HOUSE !!!!!! 
At the age of 23 !!! O.O 232323232323 LOLLLL

ofcourse that's with the help of mum (Mum is best !)
from april 2016 to july/august 2016.. 
i'm super busy with the housing things ~
keep on research & research & research
and lastly I got my first house hehe..
under my name O.O 

the procedure of purchasing a house is not simple ">__<"
have to gone through a lot of up and down ~
supportive and unsupportive comments ~
afraid of getting cheated ~
afriad of cannot afford the installment ~
afraid of bank not approve loan ~
afraid of developer cannot finish build my house TT
afraid of future moving in issue ~
afraid of future husband issue ~ 
bla bla bla ~ 

so far I only encountered half of the issue ~
how about the rest ? hmm.. when the day arrive, it will resolve LOL
so how it goes ? initially ofcourse started by searching for houses 
have to search for house with low price, not too far like kajang ~
not old ~ with 3 rooms ~ with 2 bath ~ size doesn't matter to us :p
mum say smaller is cheaper and better for cleaning LOL

then tada ~ I found the house I bought !!
the agent share on FB and ask us to leave our email..
then they email us the details of the house..
so I ask mum to call them for enquire ~
then we went to sales gallery to have a look ~
then O.O placed order !!

then have a intermediate person help to apply for bank loan on my behalf ~
then wait for bank to examine my DSR (debt service ratio?) hmm..
at last got 2 bank approved, with the rate or 4.5% and 4.45%
ofcouse choose the lowest LOL.. 
but the intermediate person force mi to take house insurance..
else cannot get 4.45% lol.. then take lo..
signed the Letter of Offer for that bank ~

after that another insurance agent says no nid to take wor..
so end up didn't take the house insurance and still get 4.45% :p
so everything settle in 1 day, went to sales gallery to sign 
Loan Agreement, Sales and Purchase Agreement ~ sign until hand drop LOL
and pay the rest of the upfront money ~

and there it goes !! settled everything and wait for VP of the house
hmm... it should be completed by end of 2018 ~ lalala
let's wait for new house !!! xDDD

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hmm.. so at the age of 25
I will be staying in my own house,
driving my own car,
using my own money :p
the end of my life? o.o
1 more thing ! baby ! LOL
u slow slow wait la ~ haiz ~

lalala that's the end of story ~
stay tune ~

2016年12月4日星期日

人生低潮期?颓废期?

O.O Why am I here?
I have no idea.. LOL..
Just want to release abit my super duper emo life ~
Why Emo? Bo idea ~
Perhaps I've never been so stressed before xD
Now a little bit of stress can drown me into the sea LOL

It makes me 看什么都不顺眼
It makes me feel like 生无可恋
It makes me jealous other people life
It makes me wanna xxx LOL
It makes me everyday also so lifeless 
It makes me lost every motivation towards life, love, work and etc ~

People excited about coming January's increment/bonus
I'm excited about nothing LOL
I'm living like a walking dead ~
Everyday wake up go work back home continue work
I always ask myself.. is that so? stress? really stress?
or just my thinking make myself stress? 
or just I cannot handle stress?
or there's no stress?
or I'm too noob to manage all of it?

Whatever i think it is ~
I'm just living like pass 1 day is 1 day LOL
Where is my dream?
Where is my passion?
Passion for work? Passion for Love?
None.. None also..

You said I always complaining ~
Ya perhaps that's the only thing I can do xDDD
Why don't find a way to improve it?
Tell boss don't OT ? LOL
How about i cut down your salary? LOL
See.. Work already so sien.. 

How about relationship? o.O
5 yrs liao wor.. Not long not short also..
Argument? The impossible thing finally made possible
by me ? perhaps xD or my thinking causes it :p

Hmm.. no talking about past ~ coz u don't like it
How about future? o.O

Still the same.. unpredictable lols
Cannot feel secure.. (the stupid thinking)
I afraid I stress until say out things shouldn't be said 
I afraid I ended it accidentally :p
I afraid the next day I wake up and I regret what I said ytd 
I afraid it just gone suddenly like let's say today or tomorrow 
I'm really just passing 1 day is 1 day 

The initial thinking of "he is the one" already become blurred
coz I donno when will I lost it either by purpose or by accident 
or by my stupid thinking lols

What's the stupid thinking?
- always feel like he so tired when with me?
- always feel unfair whenever he give time to others instead of me?
- always feel imbalanced although already balanced?
- always feel i'm no priority although already a priority?
- always feel it's my problem but no way to release the emotion?
- always talk sarcastic when emo?
- always看不顺眼 whatever he do?
- always cry alone and cry so hard at night and on the bed?
- and last thing, always feel like he gonna fly me very soon :p
- and imagine the scene after being fly lols..

Then how can I survive until today without being mad? LOL
since there's so many crazy thinking inside there?
Here are the tipssssss 
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1. Do not talk / talk less (when driving car in morning, or back home, or any other scenes). Or even see him online in facebook (DON'T TALK too much, coz it will lead to argument lols)
Why do not talk? Coz the more I talk, the more I find out more things and the more I feel imbalance.
Example: You say you're going for activity at coming what what day. (Reflected the sentence in heart = He's going to enjoy, and I have to go to work myself and eat myself and I back home have to suffer working again)
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2. Spam code like a mad
Boss wanted to see result? So I gave him the results he wants LOL..  
When coding, it reduces my stupid thinking and put every shit get out of me
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3. Treat every good/bad thing as nothing
Some good news happen, I will like "Oh, is that so? I see" that's all
Some bad news happen. I will like "Oh, as predicted.. just swallow it :p"
Feels like human without emotion? LOL bcoz nothing interests me anymore
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4. Pass 1 day is 1 day
Since nothing I can do about my life at the moment.. 
Then just pass 1 day is 1 day LOL
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So. I will still stick to the life of walking dead ~ :p
Towards the road to unknown future ~

What's unknown future? Like: 
after 1 year where am I working?
after 1 year are we still together?
after 1 year am I becoming a better person?
after 1 year is my career great enough to satisfy me?
after 1 year am I still facing a lot stress?
or I already capable of manage all of the stress?
or I already defeated by stress just like now?

There's no promising future, but with promising thinking comes greater future

LOL.. cincai created a sentence macam yes ~_~

So, the goal of 2017 is to change my thinking? 
hmmm.. let's see :p

tata

2016年11月27日星期日

hmmm

perhaps life will be better without me :p

2016年9月5日星期一

yish

arghhhhh...
i pekcek... i don like...
where can i faxie..
i nid a way to release my emotion !!!!

no.. u should be calm..
lol.. this is nt like u..
let's be calm..
i will be no feeling soon..
become a walking dead maybe..

2015年10月4日星期日

finally working adult ~

hoho。。我又来了!
我终于毕业了~
值得开心的是。。
我已经开工了!!
迈向人生另一个阶段
也就意味着责任担当的开始
养家吗。。xD

是的。。上班族咯。。
第一份Permanent Job!
要加油哦Carol。。
我相信我可以的!
最最最重要的就是。。
一定要开始存线。。

opps。。忘了说。。
我也已经拥有了人生第一辆车!!
好兴奋的同时也是commitment的开始。。
对,人生就是要有commitment才会有motivation
加油赚钱吧。。

也要开始为未来Planning了吧
Software Development也是需要Planning
何况是我们的人生。。
来策划下之后的目标
几个月后回来希望全部都做到。。TT

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开工后的目标:
-每个月存500令吉!(不可能也要变可能!)
-运动的开始。。(懒惰也要尽力)
-提升knowledge+skills (这个是必须的!)
-ukulele要学好(当然要谢谢他送我 xD)
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话说我是非常3分钟热度的。。
唯一一个到现在为止还持之以恒的事情就是。。。
写日记。。自从认识你之后。。
答应你从今以后都会一直写下去。。
不知不觉已经4年++了
已经变成一种不可不做的事

看看。。你的影响力还真大 xD
不过到现在已经不是为你而写
是因为自己想把全部事情纪录下
如果某一天失忆了可以拿出来看?LOL
没有啦 xD 其实是要给未来的我。。
回味一下年少时的我。。
看下改变了多少。。

人生短短几十年。。
不想就这样白过。。
所以每一天都是充满希望的。。
YOLO !!

其实我的人生还真幸运。。
到目前为止都一帆风顺。。
没有经历过太大的挫折。。
要什么都能得到。。
学业成绩也达到自己的期望。。

所以,劝劝自己提醒自己。。
少一点埋怨,多一点思考
多一点爱惜和帮助身边的人

工作上希望人际关系要和谐。。
注意自己的言行举止。。
以免造成不好的形象。。
要谦卑学习,认真工作
每天增加自己的知识
看多,读多,学多!
少说话,多做事?LOL

whatever。。
刚踏入新环境。。
希望是成功的开始。。
成功对我而言不一定就是事业上
也是人生道路上的成功。。

从小开始就已经时常思考
到底要如何提升自己
改变自己。。去掉缺点。。
把人家的优点学学
应用在自己身上

虽然大多时候都是3分钟热度LOL
不过至少我有在改变。。
感情上也是,生活上也是
有人告诉我这样不好,我改
发现自己这样不好,也改
只是,真的需要时间。。
毕竟江山易改,本性难移 xD

22岁,一个充满活力的年纪
希望5年后的我,已经有一番成就。。
不一定是事业上。。而是各方面。。
例如。。家务会做好。。
家里打扫到干干净净。。
煮饭也是要学学。。
工作要力争上游。。
知识也要不断提升。。
人际关系要和睦。。
家人要照顾好。。
金钱也要管理好。。
压力要找到舒缓方式。。
健康也要照顾。。
运动!!

对,下一个需要持之以恒的事就是运动!!
arghhhhh。。一定要好像写日记那样!!
LOL 你慢慢加油啦。。
bye bye xD

2015年8月23日星期日

it's me :p

hmm... jie jie is back :p
3 months ago I got come back wor xDD
not bad ma... LOL..
so my Intern already 5 months..
1 month to go..

so.. how's life? O.O
found a new job.. :p
hope everything go as normal..
hope I can save 1k per month
of course is after start work LOL
but i know that is impossible @@

so many expenses ">__<"
y adult so many thing also $$$
no wonder parent always argue..
lol.. tell myself.. no $$ don't gv birth..
but accident how? LOL.. choi choi..

how's relationship? o.o..
as usual lo <3 ...="" childish..="" p="" still="">still emo always... but lesser (think so)
still 又爱又恨 LOL.. fake.. :3
seems like not really over care.. o.o
how to maintain? o.O

next time work different company wor..
LOL.. purposely de lo.. :3
already stick for 4 yrs..
how to separate suddenly @@..
whatever .. life goes on.. :3

human has to grow up..
and so do i..
wish I really can grow up..
in terms of mentally O.O..
still kid.. still bear always..

haiz... 4 yrs ago..
so energetic.. so passionate..
now so dull.. lost passion.. @@
how to find it back?
Halo??? LOL...

sot sot de me :3..
who cares..
i'm who i am xDD
bb lo... wait another 3 months?
see whether i'm enjoying or suffering LOLL

2015年5月8日星期五

Sad...

N months no write? y come bck?
sure sad lo... TT...
sure gt thing wan to faxie...
but too timid cnt do it publicly...

y i always sick? always pain Grrr
y i have to suffer all these...
y nt the selfish 1 who suffer...
so they know the feeling of pain...
y i so kind also nid suffer... TT

i really wish i died so no nid to face this cruel world... merciless... Arghhh...
even ur family members... TT
i hate myself... hate until the END arghhh

not a good daughter..
not a good sister
not a good gf....
not a good fren...

i wan kill myself..
but im so timid...
i havent repay my mum...
i always scared i die too early no one will care my mum... since they so selfish...

pain... oni know pain...
troublemaker... oni know make trouble...
useless... stupid... pain die mi... pls...
just let mi die due to pain...

or fever until die... hot like iron...
since family also don care...
oni know scold...

but i cnt die yet... TT...
i must grow up... even hard n tough...
i must repay all to my mum...
maybe after she went to heaven oni my turn... sad...

how to stand the pain?
arghhhhhhh......
stupid carol...

period pain... gastric pain...
hand pain leg pain ass pain...
still gt wer no pain de? F5..
tell mi.. y u so noob...
y u cnt care ur body...
y the fck u let urself sick...
Arghhhhhhhh....

no eye c u... lol...

2015年2月20日星期五

lalala

我是buibui。。xD
为什么又出现了? O.O
来扫blog呱。。
太久没有update了!

所以我已经即将毕业!O.O
好厉害哦。。LOL
这个“由你玩四年” (university)
的生活就这样告一段落了。。

四月份!
就要摆脱学生的影子
踏上上班族的不归路 TT
凡事都有pros n cons。。
有好有坏啦。。xD

pros当然是可以用自己的$$$
cons当然是失去了时间自由!
不能再像学生那样逍遥自在了。。
OMG。。college life 也不是盖的okay?!
hmmm..but working will be more tough ~

我的人生又要迈进另一个level了。。
希望思想变得更成熟。。
不要太幼稚了!buibui来~ LOL

how about my relationship O.O
hmm... so so lo ~ no more exciting
no more passion ~ no big feeling ~
left plain feel ~ good thing also ><

miss the previous carol ~
so passionate ~ so lovely ~
full of love in heart ~ @@
now become pure water ~ xD

whatever ~ it's time for us to grow up and become money slave !! lalala ~

2014年10月30日星期四

My Life xD

yo... so long didn't come here..
miss the moment i spread my feelings here...
time passes so fast lo...
we are year 3 student already !!
1 more sem to left and go for intern ...

how is our relationship going on?
hmmm... bittersweet... sour.. happy.. watever it happen xd..
lols.. we are just like old husband n wife..
not much passion though...
but deep inside our heart for sure there is love... <3

thanks for bearing with me for 3 yrs ++
you had to stand with my childishness n playfulness lols... pity u xD...
sometimes my 无理取闹 as well....
i admit that i'm becoming not as good as the initial me.. sry for that... TT...
however.. i still try my best to be good xD..

it's a great pleasure for me to have u by my side...
care me and worry me...
although in a different way.. xd...
but i got it all ♡
i feel warm for watever u did for me..
no matter it is scold or just saying xD

no matter what will we become in the future... thanks for being an angel of mine in my study life ♡

thumbs up for u ! my dear kian leong ☺

hope u will always be my man

hohohoho...
donno u will c dao this post or not xD

2014年9月19日星期五

yo..

a sorrow day ~
they argue about money again...
y my family always hv such problem.. TT
y we hv to beg money from ppl...
y we nid to bear all these...
y i hv to stress myself...
y i hv to do wat others didnt do...

remind myself nt to gv birth without the ability to gv him/her happiness... TT...
is tat mean forever alone? lols...
watever...

y i hv to be so bad...
o.o... sry for everything...

let the bygone be bygone...
life goes on...
gastric continues...
cry again x_x