yish

arghhhhh...
i pekcek... i don like...
where can i faxie..
i nid a way to release my emotion !!!!

no.. u should be calm..
lol.. this is nt like u..
let's be calm..
i will be no feeling soon..
become a walking dead maybe..

finally working adult ~

hoho。。我又来了！

我终于毕业了～

值得开心的是。。

我已经开工了！！

迈向人生另一个阶段

也就意味着责任担当的开始

养家吗。。xD

是的。。上班族咯。。

第一份Permanent Job！

要加油哦Carol。。

我相信我可以的！

最最最重要的就是。。

一定要开始存线。。

opps。。忘了说。。

我也已经拥有了人生第一辆车！！

好兴奋的同时也是commitment的开始。。

对，人生就是要有commitment才会有motivation

加油赚钱吧。。

也要开始为未来Planning了吧

Software Development也是需要Planning

何况是我们的人生。。

来策划下之后的目标

几个月后回来希望全部都做到。。TT

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开工后的目标：

－每个月存500令吉！（不可能也要变可能！）

－运动的开始。。（懒惰也要尽力）

－提升knowledge＋skills （这个是必须的！）

－ukulele要学好（当然要谢谢他送我 xD）

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话说我是非常3分钟热度的。。

唯一一个到现在为止还持之以恒的事情就是。。。

写日记。。自从认识你之后。。

答应你从今以后都会一直写下去。。

不知不觉已经4年＋＋了

已经变成一种不可不做的事

看看。。你的影响力还真大 xD

不过到现在已经不是为你而写

是因为自己想把全部事情纪录下

如果某一天失忆了可以拿出来看？LOL

没有啦 xD 其实是要给未来的我。。

回味一下年少时的我。。

看下改变了多少。。

人生短短几十年。。

不想就这样白过。。

所以每一天都是充满希望的。。

YOLO ！！

其实我的人生还真幸运。。

到目前为止都一帆风顺。。

没有经历过太大的挫折。。

要什么都能得到。。

学业成绩也达到自己的期望。。

所以，劝劝自己提醒自己。。

少一点埋怨，多一点思考

多一点爱惜和帮助身边的人

工作上希望人际关系要和谐。。

注意自己的言行举止。。

以免造成不好的形象。。

要谦卑学习，认真工作

每天增加自己的知识

看多，读多，学多！

少说话，多做事？LOL

whatever。。

刚踏入新环境。。

希望是成功的开始。。

成功对我而言不一定就是事业上

也是人生道路上的成功。。

从小开始就已经时常思考

到底要如何提升自己

改变自己。。去掉缺点。。

把人家的优点学学

应用在自己身上

虽然大多时候都是3分钟热度LOL

不过至少我有在改变。。

感情上也是，生活上也是

有人告诉我这样不好，我改

发现自己这样不好，也改

只是，真的需要时间。。

毕竟江山易改，本性难移 xD

22岁，一个充满活力的年纪

希望5年后的我，已经有一番成就。。

不一定是事业上。。而是各方面。。

例如。。家务会做好。。

家里打扫到干干净净。。

煮饭也是要学学。。

工作要力争上游。。

知识也要不断提升。。

人际关系要和睦。。

家人要照顾好。。

金钱也要管理好。。

压力要找到舒缓方式。。

健康也要照顾。。

运动！！

对，下一个需要持之以恒的事就是运动！！

arghhhhh。。一定要好像写日记那样！！

LOL 你慢慢加油啦。。

bye bye xD

it's me :p

hmm... jie jie is back :p
3 months ago I got come back wor xDD
not bad ma... LOL..
so my Intern already 5 months..
1 month to go..

so.. how's life? O.O
found a new job.. :p
hope everything go as normal..
hope I can save 1k per month
of course is after start work LOL
but i know that is impossible @@

so many expenses ">__<"
y adult so many thing also $$$
no wonder parent always argue..
lol.. tell myself.. no $$ don't gv birth..
but accident how? LOL.. choi choi..

how's relationship? o.o..
as usual lo <3 ...="" childish..="" p="" still="">still emo always... but lesser (think so)
still 又爱又恨 LOL.. fake.. :3
seems like not really over care.. o.o
how to maintain? o.O

next time work different company wor..
LOL.. purposely de lo.. :3
already stick for 4 yrs..
how to separate suddenly @@..
whatever .. life goes on.. :3

human has to grow up..
and so do i..
wish I really can grow up..
in terms of mentally O.O..
still kid.. still bear always..

haiz... 4 yrs ago..
so energetic.. so passionate..
now so dull.. lost passion.. @@
how to find it back?
Halo??? LOL...

sot sot de me :3..
who cares..
i'm who i am xDD
bb lo... wait another 3 months?
see whether i'm enjoying or suffering LOLL

Sad...

N months no write? y come bck?
sure sad lo... TT...
sure gt thing wan to faxie...
but too timid cnt do it publicly...

y i always sick? always pain Grrr
y i have to suffer all these...
y nt the selfish 1 who suffer...
so they know the feeling of pain...
y i so kind also nid suffer... TT

i really wish i died so no nid to face this cruel world... merciless... Arghhh...
even ur family members... TT
i hate myself... hate until the END arghhh

not a good daughter..
not a good sister
not a good gf....
not a good fren...

i wan kill myself..
but im so timid...
i havent repay my mum...
i always scared i die too early no one will care my mum... since they so selfish...

pain... oni know pain...
troublemaker... oni know make trouble...
useless... stupid... pain die mi... pls...
just let mi die due to pain...

or fever until die... hot like iron...
since family also don care...
oni know scold...

but i cnt die yet... TT...
i must grow up... even hard n tough...
i must repay all to my mum...
maybe after she went to heaven oni my turn... sad...

how to stand the pain?
arghhhhhhh......
stupid carol...

period pain... gastric pain...
hand pain leg pain ass pain...
still gt wer no pain de? F5..
tell mi.. y u so noob...
y u cnt care ur body...
y the fck u let urself sick...
Arghhhhhhhh....

no eye c u... lol...

lalala

我是buibui。。xD
为什么又出现了？ O.O
来扫blog呱。。
太久没有update了！

所以我已经即将毕业！O.O
好厉害哦。。LOL
这个“由你玩四年” (university)
的生活就这样告一段落了。。

四月份！
就要摆脱学生的影子
踏上上班族的不归路 TT
凡事都有pros n cons。。
有好有坏啦。。xD

pros当然是可以用自己的$$$
cons当然是失去了时间自由！
不能再像学生那样逍遥自在了。。
OMG。。college life 也不是盖的okay？！
hmmm..but working will be more tough ~

我的人生又要迈进另一个level了。。
希望思想变得更成熟。。
不要太幼稚了！buibui来～ LOL

how about my relationship O.O
hmm... so so lo ~ no more exciting
no more passion ~ no big feeling ~
left plain feel ~ good thing also ><

miss the previous carol ~
so passionate ~ so lovely ~
full of love in heart ~ @@
now become pure water ~ xD

whatever ~ it's time for us to grow up and become money slave !! lalala ~

My Life xD

yo... so long didn't come here..
miss the moment i spread my feelings here...
time passes so fast lo...
we are year 3 student already !!
1 more sem to left and go for intern ...

how is our relationship going on?
hmmm... bittersweet... sour.. happy.. watever it happen xd..
lols.. we are just like old husband n wife..
not much passion though...
but deep inside our heart for sure there is love... <3

thanks for bearing with me for 3 yrs ++
you had to stand with my childishness n playfulness lols... pity u xD...
sometimes my 无理取闹 as well....
i admit that i'm becoming not as good as the initial me.. sry for that... TT...
however.. i still try my best to be good xD..

it's a great pleasure for me to have u by my side...
care me and worry me...
although in a different way.. xd...
but i got it all ♡
i feel warm for watever u did for me..
no matter it is scold or just saying xD

no matter what will we become in the future... thanks for being an angel of mine in my study life ♡

thumbs up for u ! my dear kian leong ☺

hope u will always be my man

hohohoho...
donno u will c dao this post or not xD

yo..

a sorrow day ~
they argue about money again...
y my family always hv such problem.. TT
y we hv to beg money from ppl...
y we nid to bear all these...
y i hv to stress myself...
y i hv to do wat others didnt do...

remind myself nt to gv birth without the ability to gv him/her happiness... TT...
is tat mean forever alone? lols...
watever...

y i hv to be so bad...
o.o... sry for everything...

let the bygone be bygone...
life goes on...
gastric continues...
cry again x_x

mentos

76 more mentos ne...
it's nt easy..
but i will finish it lols

TT

yer...how do i continue...
each n every day ..
it's getting worse n worse..
i hate myself...
i hate u carol...

arghhh...
i need to faxie...
i nid to cry ...
forgive my dumbness

i donno how to release
my stupid emotion..
just let mi cry out...
TT...

i got no one to talk...
i can talk to no one  !
i don wan to talk to anyone...
let me die inside myself...

no one cn cure...
the key to cure is myself...
problem is in me myself grrr
TT...

sry dear..
i didnt make myself a good gf..
and i cn never be one...

3rd year ~

yo... long time no come again...
it's our 3rd year !! O.O

told myself to treat u better..
end up treat u worst.. haiz..
too bad carol... TT
so.. our 3rd yr anniversary start with..
wei qi co cu day O.O

win 5 round lose 2 round xD
1st round lose because ?
sei assignment Grrrrrrr
still wan deduct me 5 markss...
grrrrrrrrrr
make us forfeit 1st game automatically
NOT HAPPY LO xD

finish cocu day already 5pm+
O.O... then u bring me to festival..
we watch movie "into the storm"
so chi gek O.O...
then back PV16...
go Six inch for dinner...
coz mum say 8pm must back home..

faster eat le then back home lu...
that's 9th August... xD
back home slp til tomorrow LOL

so.. how's this 3 yrs going on?
we've experienced so much xia..
no matter happy or sad..
angry or frustration..
touching or embarrassing..
it's already thousand days ..
and still counting ♥

thanks for coming into my life..
bringing joy and happiness to me..
although sometimes it is sad..
but i still love u..
for who u are.. ♥

let's go on to the 10.. 20.. 30 anniversary xD