it's me :p

hmm... jie jie is back :p
3 months ago I got come back wor xDD
not bad ma... LOL..
so my Intern already 5 months..
1 month to go..

so.. how's life? O.O
found a new job.. :p
hope everything go as normal..
hope I can save 1k per month
of course is after start work LOL
but i know that is impossible @@

so many expenses ">__<"
y adult so many thing also $$$
no wonder parent always argue..
lol.. tell myself.. no $$ don't gv birth..
but accident how? LOL.. choi choi..

how's relationship? o.o..
as usual lo <3 ...="" childish..="" p="" still="">still emo always... but lesser (think so)
still 又爱又恨 LOL.. fake.. :3
seems like not really over care.. o.o
how to maintain? o.O

next time work different company wor..
LOL.. purposely de lo.. :3
already stick for 4 yrs..
how to separate suddenly @@..
whatever .. life goes on.. :3

human has to grow up..
and so do i..
wish I really can grow up..
in terms of mentally O.O..
still kid.. still bear always..

haiz... 4 yrs ago..
so energetic.. so passionate..
now so dull.. lost passion.. @@
how to find it back?
Halo??? LOL...

sot sot de me :3..
who cares..
i'm who i am xDD
bb lo... wait another 3 months?
see whether i'm enjoying or suffering LOLL

Sad...

N months no write? y come bck?
sure sad lo... TT...
sure gt thing wan to faxie...
but too timid cnt do it publicly...

y i always sick? always pain Grrr
y i have to suffer all these...
y nt the selfish 1 who suffer...
so they know the feeling of pain...
y i so kind also nid suffer... TT

i really wish i died so no nid to face this cruel world... merciless... Arghhh...
even ur family members... TT
i hate myself... hate until the END arghhh

not a good daughter..
not a good sister
not a good gf....
not a good fren...

i wan kill myself..
but im so timid...
i havent repay my mum...
i always scared i die too early no one will care my mum... since they so selfish...

pain... oni know pain...
troublemaker... oni know make trouble...
useless... stupid... pain die mi... pls...
just let mi die due to pain...

or fever until die... hot like iron...
since family also don care...
oni know scold...

but i cnt die yet... TT...
i must grow up... even hard n tough...
i must repay all to my mum...
maybe after she went to heaven oni my turn... sad...

how to stand the pain?
arghhhhhhh......
stupid carol...

period pain... gastric pain...
hand pain leg pain ass pain...
still gt wer no pain de? F5..
tell mi.. y u so noob...
y u cnt care ur body...
y the fck u let urself sick...
Arghhhhhhhh....

no eye c u... lol...

lalala

我是buibui。。xD
为什么又出现了？ O.O
来扫blog呱。。
太久没有update了！

所以我已经即将毕业！O.O
好厉害哦。。LOL
这个“由你玩四年” (university)
的生活就这样告一段落了。。

四月份！
就要摆脱学生的影子
踏上上班族的不归路 TT
凡事都有pros n cons。。
有好有坏啦。。xD

pros当然是可以用自己的$$$
cons当然是失去了时间自由！
不能再像学生那样逍遥自在了。。
OMG。。college life 也不是盖的okay？！
hmmm..but working will be more tough ~

我的人生又要迈进另一个level了。。
希望思想变得更成熟。。
不要太幼稚了！buibui来～ LOL

how about my relationship O.O
hmm... so so lo ~ no more exciting
no more passion ~ no big feeling ~
left plain feel ~ good thing also ><

miss the previous carol ~
so passionate ~ so lovely ~
full of love in heart ~ @@
now become pure water ~ xD

whatever ~ it's time for us to grow up and become money slave !! lalala ~

My Life xD

yo... so long didn't come here..
miss the moment i spread my feelings here...
time passes so fast lo...
we are year 3 student already !!
1 more sem to left and go for intern ...

how is our relationship going on?
hmmm... bittersweet... sour.. happy.. watever it happen xd..
lols.. we are just like old husband n wife..
not much passion though...
but deep inside our heart for sure there is love... <3

thanks for bearing with me for 3 yrs ++
you had to stand with my childishness n playfulness lols... pity u xD...
sometimes my 无理取闹 as well....
i admit that i'm becoming not as good as the initial me.. sry for that... TT...
however.. i still try my best to be good xD..

it's a great pleasure for me to have u by my side...
care me and worry me...
although in a different way.. xd...
but i got it all ♡
i feel warm for watever u did for me..
no matter it is scold or just saying xD

no matter what will we become in the future... thanks for being an angel of mine in my study life ♡

thumbs up for u ! my dear kian leong ☺

hope u will always be my man

hohohoho...
donno u will c dao this post or not xD

yo..

a sorrow day ~
they argue about money again...
y my family always hv such problem.. TT
y we hv to beg money from ppl...
y we nid to bear all these...
y i hv to stress myself...
y i hv to do wat others didnt do...

remind myself nt to gv birth without the ability to gv him/her happiness... TT...
is tat mean forever alone? lols...
watever...

y i hv to be so bad...
o.o... sry for everything...

let the bygone be bygone...
life goes on...
gastric continues...
cry again x_x

mentos

76 more mentos ne...
it's nt easy..
but i will finish it lols

TT

yer...how do i continue...
each n every day ..
it's getting worse n worse..
i hate myself...
i hate u carol...

arghhh...
i need to faxie...
i nid to cry ...
forgive my dumbness

i donno how to release
my stupid emotion..
just let mi cry out...
TT...

i got no one to talk...
i can talk to no one  !
i don wan to talk to anyone...
let me die inside myself...

no one cn cure...
the key to cure is myself...
problem is in me myself grrr
TT...

sry dear..
i didnt make myself a good gf..
and i cn never be one...

3rd year ~

yo... long time no come again...
it's our 3rd year !! O.O

told myself to treat u better..
end up treat u worst.. haiz..
too bad carol... TT
so.. our 3rd yr anniversary start with..
wei qi co cu day O.O

win 5 round lose 2 round xD
1st round lose because ?
sei assignment Grrrrrrr
still wan deduct me 5 markss...
grrrrrrrrrr
make us forfeit 1st game automatically
NOT HAPPY LO xD

finish cocu day already 5pm+
O.O... then u bring me to festival..
we watch movie "into the storm"
so chi gek O.O...
then back PV16...
go Six inch for dinner...
coz mum say 8pm must back home..

faster eat le then back home lu...
that's 9th August... xD
back home slp til tomorrow LOL

so.. how's this 3 yrs going on?
we've experienced so much xia..
no matter happy or sad..
angry or frustration..
touching or embarrassing..
it's already thousand days ..
and still counting ♥

thanks for coming into my life..
bringing joy and happiness to me..
although sometimes it is sad..
but i still love u..
for who u are.. ♥

let's go on to the 10.. 20.. 30 anniversary xD

arghhh

wa...see...
i so long no come jor...
degree life so damn busy @@
haiz...assignment cnt finish ah
so tired everyday...
going to collapse soon...TT

where is my peace...
where is my life TT
i got no life...
result is going downhill...
why i become so lazy...
are u carol?

or perhaps...
i realized tat...
study too much is useless
LOL... tat is just an excuse !!
for mi to continue lazy Arghh

Carol !! Please wake up...
don be so lazy anymore GRR
TT not me lazy...
is i getting more n more tired...
each n everyday... @@

my 'will' is not there...
i got no determination..
like wat i did be4... TT

is it i will gonna lay down soon? @@
LOL.. ridiculous...
i have nt yet been through harder things
god is not going to let mi go... xDD

so... back to reality..
and sleep now !! grrrr

*to future me
hope 'u' will see this n laugh xDD

Ha Ha

哈。。哈。。
明天考database
我来这里做什么 LOL
很明显。。
要逃避读书 T__T

这个degree太扯了吧。。
越来越恐怖。。
越来越多东西做。。
sien。。

每个midterm都好像不会做
因为没有尽全力。。
dai sei。。！
自己拿来的！

滚回去读书吧 TT