o.o

sorry i'm so cold... ">__<"

this few day i'm unhappy..

but not bcoz of relationship..

just relate to family.. 

my brain is empty ~

i don't know what happen ~

nothing interest me TT

no mood to do anything..lols..

i cant talk to u also..

donno y.. lol...

leave mi alone ba.. TT

lol..

finally finish my sem 6 ~
just wait for final exam now
feel like so empty
i've lost my spirit..
">__<"

donno what should i do
lols.. have to work on weekend
let's make myself become busy ~
sem break is coming
i don wanna go home..
but i miss my mum TT

how i wish i can start working now..
so i got my own money..
able to make myself feel secure ">_<"
2 more yrs to go..
good luck carol xD

birthday ^^

first and foremost..
happy birthday to myself ^^
thanks to my mum ...
for bringing mi to this world !

the second VIP ...
of course is my dear xD
thanks for accompany me
for the whole day ♥♥
it's actually more than enough !

i watching u.. u stay silent..
and u scare i unhappy
bcoz didn't get ur gift..
i m 心痛 ne.. ">_<"

honestly, no gift nvm de..
as long as u are with me..
always... ♥
that's more than enough

i'm happy to eat with u..
watch movie with u...
hang out with u..
play with u..

next year or following year...
don worry about gift .. o.o
i 不忍心 see ur worry look ">__<"
1 year plus plus le ..
still the same sentence..

every moment spent with u.. is a moment i treasure !!
it means the past, now and also future ♥

burn ~

i've something wrong le ... lols
went out with family two days..
2 days also 发火.. @_@
why become like that lols..
maybe don like to see someone..

today steamboat again..
i wasted money again.. lols..
why don born me same as others..
why let mi feel vomit bcoz of those smell..
why people can eat so happily..
why i have to avoid .. haiz...

lol back to 发火 ...
ytd angry and felt heart pain..
coz he done such thing again...Grrr
i hate him so much..
but anyhow he's still my dearest xxx..
this is fact and cannot be change lols
we just can hope he became better...

i kept telling myself..
whatever he took from my mum..
i will earn back double for her..
hope i can achieve it.. xDD
as usual.. i angry.. i tear ~
so i don wan to angry arghh...

today angry becoz of sister.. lols
even it's just super small thing..
i recall back again.. lol
y i always like that.. ">__<"
i always tell myself to calm..
let's calm calm calm...

but hor.. until now..
i still cannot angry infront u.. LOL
yuan lai u so pro... xD
i will become soft even feel angry..
let's continue...
i need control my EQ well..

blaaa...

o.o back to college life le..

feel much & much better..xD

sure la.. everyday can c someone xD

instead of listen to xxxx at home O.O

i notice something this few days..

i become super anti him lols..

that day my mum came to find me..

initially i agree to go out dinner

then i heard they wan go PJ..

i straight say no need .. lols..

today my mum say he will come kl..

then maybe bring us to lunch..

i also rejected strongly ... lols

what happened to me? @_@

is that really what i wan? ~_~

i've no idea ~ donno y ~ blek..

just feel don wan to meet him @@

am i so bad ? @__@

watever ~

xxx

o.o donno what title to put ne...
it's good also.. can let ppl guess xD
attract ppl to read my post..
wakakaka... xD
although we gt ntg to talk ~

so fast CNY 4th day le O.O
ytd just back from perak ~
it's super super tired lols
we stay overnight at there ~
sleep on living room floor..

new year wor...
sure get many ang pau..
o.o really get many..
before get le can dream..
wan to buy what gift for myself xD

now ah.. just enough for my
1 month plus de 生活费.. lols
kid and adult really different .. ">_<"
so.. new yr happy or not ne?
no happy no unhappy no feeling ~

pak tor happy or not le?
o.o secret lai de.. xD
will be reveal in diary hehe..

yuan lai today last day in bentong ~
this few days is super cold ~
no matter is weather or xxxx
maybe it is really cold .. hmm...
i think so ... lols.. sot jor xD

5.20pm le.. just finish my "brunch"
bentong nasi lemak.. quite nice..
many ppl queue to buy just now O.O
but it is also super pedas # #
haiz..

what can i do ne?
i don like stay home ~
and also going back... lols
i wan continue dream..
">_<" whatever la..

cny

hmm...
its CNY soon...
should b happy de..
cn get ang pau ma..
lols..

haiz...
don think so much...
lets go on as usual...
plz let mi graduate xDD
as soon as possible ~

i will study hard hard de..
i will able to protect u...
i will nt let him hurt u..
with his nasty words ARGH..

just now nearly argue with him...
even it's just small thing...
i really cnt bear his mouth...
how can be such bad...lols
i ve tahan for 20 yrs already Grr
i wonder when i can talk...
louder than him ?

when i got money?
when i got a house?
lols... long time to go..
hope that i can gv u ...
a better lifestyle...
a better house...
and best daughter...
until the end of ur life...

i was super scare ...
since doctor said u have only..
10 years max of ur life...
when u got the sick tat year...
i was really counting each yr...
now its already 12 yrs ...
and u already recovered...

but i'm still afraid...
i donno ...
when u are going to leave mi...
i haven even 报答 u...
so.. whenever u go out...
im super worry...
tat y when i bck home...
i must stick with u...
go wherever u want...

i know tat everyone will pass away..
but i don wan it to be happen...
although its impossible...
but pls...at least...
let me 尽尽孝道 ...

i asked u wat can i gift u...
when i was child...
bcoz i got no money and power..
u say... result good can le..
so tat u can b proud of mi...
infront others who look down u..

so.. i try super hard...
to achieve the only thing i can gift u...
as a student...a child...a daughter...
bcoz i know besides this..
im nothing... i cnt gift u anything...
other than study hard... TT

whenever i get good result...
i only want to let u know...
n when i get bad result..
i don want to let u know...lols...
coz i will feel myself so useless..
the only thing u wish from me..
and i cnt achieve it....lols...

so...plz let me graduate faster...
i want to work..
to repay back 20++ yrs..
of your best care...

whenever u tell mi how he treat u...
i am so angry and suffer...
bcoz i cnt do anything...
i only know cry lols....
hw come ppl dad cn be so good..
lols...

calm down calm down...
tmr is a good day..
thanks god u are still alive...
thanks god i m still growing up...
i will be a good daughter...
not like wat he said...
throw u to old folk home...
it is impossible...

bcoz he is the one Grrr...
but surely i wont do tat lols..
im not as cruel as he is...arghhh
although my hate for him
is ever increasing Grrr....

really nid calm down...
bb xD

TT

TT... im emo again...
although nothing happened...
why? bcoz the bomb was triggered...
u did not knew it...
bcoz u did nothing wrong..
i was the 1 who wrong TT..
i still cant let go it... TT
i tot everything went fine already..
but it isnt... TT
u treat me super good already...
but when i saw him...
donno whether is it really the ppl...
maybe i c wrongly...
but i felt suffer again... TT
i felt im bad...
i was unfaithful TT...
wat can i do # #
can i restart my life TT
u got to work tmr...until sunday..
i will be fine already ba... TT
anyways...
still thanks so much dear...
for treating me so good still...
although there's a needle forever...
it will always remind me...
to treat u better...
n not redo the mistake.. TT

whatever...
love continues..
i will keep on improve..
TT

wa..

woots.. yuan lai i'm in hostel already xDDD recall back last few days ~ my sis say her class until 7pm cannot take bus back home O.O omg my mood went down instantly lols.. then suddenly we go kl fetch her back home le @_@ ha.. luckily i brought lala back to hostel... if not i cant see it anymore until CNY ">__<" the last few days i was so excited ~ because my sis is back to home? LOLs... yaya... coz she is in home = i can back hostel with her xDD then i keep hoping this "few days" can pass quickly ~_~ finally it's yesterday O.O my mum still not giving up to ask me stay home ">__<" i say stomach pain... then she say "OO..then need stay home cure liao" LOL.. then i quickly say already cure xD... knowing that i won't stay home... then she say she wants go KL together with me LOL... then i say no need @__@ and so i get a response "重色轻友" ~_~ whatever ... i'm really like that ">__<" to be easy and not troublesome, we quickly get on the Bus.. instead of waiting for someone to fetch ~_~ this world still got ppl want money in order to fetch own kids back hostel ? yesss... anyways.. we didn't wish for his "fetch".. xD.. getting on the bus was more exciting xD.. becoz the bus broke on half way... lols... so we get down and stand on the roadside.. O.O waiting for another bus to get on xD.. a Genting bus came.. and we go up lo... although is standing.. but it's better than nothing O.O ... reached titiwangsa ~ struggling whether want to be safe and take monorail... then change LRT... then take bus... OR... straight walk through a small small danger road and go to opposite General Hospital to take bus straight reach hostel... xD.. ofcourse i choose second 1... coz faster xD then we take metrobus reach hostel.. O.O walking in to the hostel is super excited ~_~ finally saw u.. ">__<" back to room and fly to bath.. O.O bath also faster.. lols.. YESsss.. let me wait dao le ^^ .. laugh liao whole afternoon LOL... fa hiao again ">__<" anyways... thanks so much dear ♥♥ still accompany me for whole day xDD... muacks.. <3

yea..

lol.. count exactly..

13 days more to 4th feb ~

good.. since so early go back

nothing to do... lols

emo also useless ">_<"

haiz... 

donno why every sem break

i also macam mad girl

keep wan go back earlier..

then after go back..

still wan let ppl ask..

so early back hostel do wat?

still wan let mum say

so fast go back hostel do wat?

lols... 

carol ah carol...

meet late 1 day wont die de..

i also donno y i xxxx-ing like to meet lols..

fan zheng open school also sure can meet ~_~

rush what also donno.. # #

fine fine fine ...

let's continue miss xD 

stop argue sendiri @_@

ppl u ♥ sure worth waiting o.o