break record !

arghh.. how can I wrote so many words last year.. today I want to break record xDD.. let's see how many words I can "type" lols.. if ask me to recall back what I've written for the past 1 year.. I will only remember part of it.. So when I read back, I felt funny.. xD why am I so 肉麻.. so many ♥ on a post O.O almost every day the main focus on my post was about you.. our relationship.. how much i ♥ u O.O this is what called "fa hiao" or 思春 ? lols.. whatever... at least I know.. 在有生之年，有个人陪我度过甜酸苦辣 xDD.. and that's you.. my boy.. or my man? xD anyways.. what am I doing here now? o.o not sure... I'm too boring that I've played every game and don't know what to do right now ~ as usual... "Sem break" is what I always don like xD because it distances me from you.. lols.. ">__<" you will sure be wondering.. why this time sem break I did not keep saying "i miss u" ah... wan die ah... bla bla bla... LOL.. because i'm really missing you and i don't want you to know.. even u know u also cannot do anything ma... right.. @_@ .. the 1st day i back home.. which was friday.. I was so emo and down.. because I was forced to back ~ by who ? myself.. lols.. my parents keep ask me to back ~ but I want to stay.. wishing to meet u.. even few hours ? but I can't give my mum a reason to stay.. instead of let her say "wan boy don wan mum" i decides to back home lu.. xD.. after back home i regret xD.. lols.. i went to bath and cry O.O it has been long time i didn't cry le... funny lo? own decide to back and then cry sendiri ~_~ haiz... i find for it myself # # ... scientist says cry is good for health.. but not more than 15 minutes xD.. but whenever i do.. it is always more than that LOL... no wonder i will have gastric xD.. i found out every time back home also will feel gastric pain...  is it 心理作用？LOL...not sure.. when in hostel I didn't feel any pain.. xD maybe near to u.. O.O again.. relate to u.. fa hiao.. LOL... omg I just bitten my mouth T____T so painful.. still have 15 days to go.. how to pass ? lols.. the worst moment last sem also passed like this le.. so there's nothing that cannot pass... xD.. when I'm in my room... this position.. playing laptop... I will recall back how I suffer last sem.. @__@ and how u suffer.. sorry dear.. ">__<" make u disappointed .. TT.. but u told me it's already past.. u don care anymore.. o.o .. last sem break before open school... i still afraid after i meet u.. it will not be the same as before... maybe no more love.. or etc @_@.. that time really feel wan suicide... O.O whenever see people suicide, i will feel why they so stupid... but when things happen to u... then u will know the feeling.. wish to make urself disappear in this world xD... luckily.. u didn't do that to me.. instead.. u are just as usual.. and never ever talk about that issue infront me again.. ">__<" thanks dear..♥ .. but if u do so... i can't imagine how i gonna face u anymore... o.o maybe leave? # # .. anyways... fact is already fact.. cannot be changed.. lols.. there's sure be a needle there.. cannot be forgotten.. what i can do is.. trying to improve myself.. ">__<" .. don't always make u gek... don let u sad... although i always failed to do so... LOL... nvm... try again lo.. failure is the mother of success xD.. i know u wan to make me not so boring... so u play game with me.. O.O we played dragon saga this few days.. until midnight also no sleep... @__@ btw.. this few days really eat play sleep only ~ just like pig = = ... no choice... our education system ~ sem break is for what ? = = waste time.. if study continuously.. maybe 21 years old already graduate... xD but so fast graduate = separate with u again.. gg.. i don wan... xD... haiz... whatever la.. how long is my post already? @@... 769 words only !! omg.. not long enough... T__T.. still have many thing to talk ? hmm... some is un-talkable LOL... let's talk about lala.. its fur is really soft.. soft until i not dare to hug it so frequently.. LOL.. i scare the fur become messy xD.. how funny is this... you said if don wan hug then i gift u bear for what LOL.. i will hug it de la.. 最多 help him comb fur... xD.. how about bui bui ? o.o still cute as usual.. always help him take picture.. hehe... this is my life.. with bears full of the bed.. O.O next time maybe no chance put so many bears le... ">__<" .. pls don burn my bear xD.. i will mad.. @@.. today went out with mum... see dao my primary school... recall back my school life o.o yes got thing write le !!

Standard 1... i did a pro thing... i accidentally knock a people's head with iron ruler ">__<" then my class teacher punish me to stand on the bench ">__<" she still say initially wan let me be class monitor.. after that no need le.. lols... standard 1 is also the 1st and the only time i get 1st in class when exam.. after that.. never... lols... bcoz i promise my dad to get 1st when 6 yrs old... that time he bought me a bicycle.. i learn to ride bicycle on standard 1.. o.o

Standard 2.. they started to memorise multiplication table.. o.o i follow also... although i finish memorised all of it... forced by my aunt when i 3 years old.. lols siao... that's y my maths is abit better ">__<" .. we also always practice write chinese 生字.. every time back home do homework.. must write the word full of 1 page.. O.O i always starting by make the page like a square.. then man man write inside de word... like "口" xD...

Standard 3.. English need to take exam already... O.O become hard subject.. TT.. that time my english was so poor... lols.. but my maths was increasing.. it's also the time my mum sicked seriously and admitted into hospital for few months... i was crying everyday... every afternoon after finish class we will go to KL general hospital to visit my mum.. ">__<" doctor says her life max only 10 years if not recover... I'm super scare that time lols.. that time english exam i take low mark.. but never fail.. the teacher ask me why.. i cannot answer.. my heart was thinking about my mum.. lols..

Standard 4.. Every students must attend the tuition class in school... have to pay rm45 per month... but i'm the only 1 didn't attend tuition class... lols.. financial problem.. i'm super envy those who can.. @__@ my english is still so poor... and also malay.. my result is super worst.. get 23th among 30+ people in my class.. @@... my mum's sick still remain serious.. but not stay in hospital anymore... she not dare to go out of house.. i'm so sad lols.. my stupid dad leave us that year.. to KL.. lols.. my brother and i everyday have to go a friend's house outside wait their parent wake up fetch us go school... the people house got a dog.. i scare the dog @@ always jump out lick people = =

Standard 5.. we moved to new house xD without dad ! and that's where I live now.. the first house that we owned... bought by my mum.. 头期 still ask for grandmum's help.. tuition class? government come out a SBT donno what thing... allow poor student to go for tuition at half price... o.o then i can go tuition le.. xD happy.. because teacher sometimes will ask us things that learn in tuition class... no tuition de people donno lo ~_~ .. this year the guy i an lian changed to our class from second class.. our class first class o.o... everyday can see him O.O i invited him to my birthday party.. he got come ne... but after that donno what happen we become enemy ~_~ lols..

Standard 6.. teacher everyday talk UPSR UPSR ~_~ sien lo... last year in primary school... after that cant meet him anymore ? @@ not dare to talk to him.. until form 4 lols.. coz afraid he hate me.. got 1 day teacher change the seat of student... then change him to sit beside me ... i'm like OMG.. lols.. excited yet sad.. excited becoz he is beside me... sad becoz he won't talk to me... lols... after few days teacher change again... then he sit with another ppl le...">__<" I went to take part in Maths Competition.. bentong area de.. get 2nd O.O not bad ma.. 1st time get 奖杯 in my life.. UPSR exam lo... a 监考 teacher scold me... because i sleep @@ lols... primary school life end..

Form 1.. I went to Klang to study... at Kwang Hua (Private) high school.. have to stay in hostel... lols... ofcourse is sponsor by the 董教总... they say free to study for 6 years in the school... but have to write letter to our 干爹干娘 lols... and maintain good result + attitude ~ the school is not bad... but hostel is bad lols... kena bully by senior lo... got disorder liao ~ that y now in hostel stay with sister ">__<" that time in the school get nice result O.O 7A1B.. lols.. but after half year then leave le.. back to bentong de secondary school... but the school far from my house ~

Form 2.. changed to another school...known as the worst school in bentong... which situated just bottom of my Taman there.. form 2 that time is afternoon class ~ O.O 1pm start class... i 12pm only wake xDD... that time my friend Pei Yee always come my house play Maple with me xD.. we are in same class since primary standard 4 o.o .. geografi and sejarah is dead ~ so ghost hard lols...

Form 3... still in the same school... but is morning class liao..6am hv to wake up ">__<" ... geografi changed to a fierce teacher teach.. but teach dao good... we all scare of her @__@ she say answer objective question cannot circle the answer... must underline whole answer LOL... ke lian...mum allow me to go outside tuition...maths.. O.O.. not want go learn what.. just wan do exercise..xD trial PMR get 1A7B.. of course is math A... lols.. so cham... not dream so much for PMR... but get full A O.O..unexpected..

Form 4... changed school again... to where my brother study... and also where the guy study.. @__@ reason to change school is "want to take ICT subject"... becoz only the school have ICT... so I go into the same class with the guy again.. organized camp with him become helper O.O have chance to talk back with him... so excited ">__<" but just wan be friend.. lols.. after get full A.. then my mum allow me to tuition more subject xD.. add maths... o.o physics... physics i always bring many junk food + sweet go in eat.. LOL... the teacher so kind.. always smile with us only LOL.. but he teach like 催眠.. @@ fall sleep in his class always..

Form 5.. SPM lo... last year in secondary school... hopes to go college as soon as possible... because don like secondary school life.. all the subject are so boring... physic chemistry = = sejarah... lols.. teacher keep on push us to study until max... @__@ ke lian.. tuition still add maths + physics.. add maths so exciting... physics continue boring lols... luckily spm physic still got A.. if not really wasted 2 years money... @@ so it's the end of my secondary school life ~_~

then come to college le lo... u already know what's happening xD... knew a cute guy.. he will come chat with me.. an wei me when i sad xD.. after 1 or 2 weeks... then feel started to like him xD... then donno how together suddenly.. LOL... forget about the past.. the guy that i an lian o.o because no result de... this cute guy will got result xD... so we together liao 1 year + ... O.O i think my words should be exceed already ba ! 2174 words le !! LOL... so funny... add so many nonsence to 充数... ~_~ sure no people will finish read ba... whatever ... time to end xD

anyways... still ♥ u so much ... muacks...

假期？

一学期一次的假期又到噜。。
就是又要想你一个月 T___T 。。
不好玩的。。lols。。
不过，有的想好过没得想 xD

希望这个sem break平平淡淡。。
什么都不要发生。。
我不能承担那么多的heart break xD
因为我还小。。xD。。
小？LOL ！

原来今年开始填Age都要改成2字头了！
不是小孩子了！@___@
不过，在妈妈眼中没有长大过 = =
在哥哥姐姐眼中也是。。
在你眼中？不知道。。xD

放假咯。。
突然高潮突然闷到。。
college生活太变态了。。lol
还有两个semester。。
慢慢爱下去？（挨）LOL

回家的mission。。
1. 抱buibui。。
2. 睡够够！！
3. 玩够够 xD
4. 想下你就好。。不要太mad。。xD

wooo...that's all for today xD i love u still need to say ? understood liao gua xD

database ~

1st paper is over ... yeah...

welcome the 4 more papers o.o

i will not let u all defeat de !

put horse come here ba xD

broken english anywhere ~ lols...

anyways ~

珍惜现在。。

活在当下。。

lala..

o.o lala didn't back bentong together with me...
why ? not so sure... ><...
yuan lai gt so much thing happened last week...
today not end of the world.. o.o
the counter on the right shows..
we already together 500 days le...
it passes really fast o.o
we hav taste almost all sweet sour bitter spicy xD..
thanks god u're still with me...
thanks for not leaving... 
this time back bentong... o.o
honestly... i m not so mad anymore.. but still got miss u xD
maybe not sem break yet the feel not so strong xD...
lets wait n c whats happen when sem break... lols...
this is my 无聊 post xD..
donno u will see or not also xD...
im just release out wat my heart told me.. from time to time.. hehe..
u asked me to slp just now O.O..
gg... still playing hp... LOL...
i know u worry about my health...
who wish to have a gf full of sick..lol...
i should take care myself well.. @@
recall back last week.. lol..
what happen actually ? how can it be so @@...
when too care about someone... human will really gone mad...
will become too sensitive...
watever he do.. watever he talk..
even the face expression also can affects u... so terrible @@
this is wat called love.. lol...
and this 'sensitive' will lead to thinking extra unnecessary things... lol...
so.. another war begin.. TT...
Carol ah Carol... last year until now.. y still cant improve... haiz
why i was born to be so sensitive..
why am i so easily affected...
why am i so emotional... @@
lol.. appreciate wat i have...
至少我的人生有过刻骨铭心的一次。。
不过，我不想有第二次。。lol..

2012 o.o

end of the world ?
don't think so..
and it cannot be end
without finish spending my life with u !
reminder again ..
must treat u better..
must treat u more better...
must treat u more and more better... xD
that's it ~

...

突然发现这个。。T___T

lol

we didn't argue..
we only have cold wars...
sorry ba..
it's my fault again..
should have treat u like what i always remind myself..
Chiew Carol, are u forgetting what you've said?
......
stupid Carol..
i hate u

what can i do # #

how come ?
why am i emo suddenly lol..
again.. i proof it..
after i get angry..
i will really cry.. ><
it's not angry..maybe it's sad..
i just wan peace.. TT

why u say wan leave ?
why u say wan kick ?

i don like argument ><
and there is never fair in this world..

if it's really related to my health..
okay i stop helping..
i'm tired of being good...
let me be bad person once...
sorry.... TT

468 ~

468 days le !!
be cherish of what we have...
do not think those that will make us far apart..
i will not leave u as long as u hold on to me.. # #
whatever issue is not an issue as long as love exists..
indulge urself as u are in fairy tale.. it's not fake..

i ♥ you for who u are now ...
i do not expect u to change better..
and until now...every moment spent with u..
is still a moment i treasure.. TT
i will really sad if u continue to think that way TT

i will not mind any of ur thing..
include status, result etc..
at least for now i didn't mind at all... ><
trust me, we will achieve happiness if u ignore all those..
good night.. ><

app in store xD

after waited for a week.. @@
our app finally released in windows store xD
another first time gone ... o.o
1st time publishing app to the public xD
seems normal but for me...
it's quite exciting... O.O

hmmm... let's see... xD
still got how many first time in life ?
1st time travel alone?
1st time own a house?
1st time get a real job?
1st time get kid? LOL
1st time sell an app?

whatever.. appreciate the 1st time..xD
as it only exists once a life time !!
just like.... first time paktor? xDDDD
after all, still thanks to my dear ♥
i super super ♥ him de !!!